Still Becoming

I thought by now I’d know the road I’d know the person

I’d become

I had my hands around tomorrow Before tomorrow had begun Then life

came in without permission And rearranged what I could see

Now I’m learning how to carry What I never chose to be

(ooh) I don’t have a map

I don’t have a plan

But I know who holds me

When I cannot stand

I’m still here

I’m still becoming

Still believing Though I don’t know what is coming

I have questions I have tears I have walked through all these

years And somehow underneath it all

Your love was still here (Your love was still here)

I’ve watched my body change the rules And make a stranger of

my plans I’ve had to learn to move much slower When I

wanted desperately to stand And there are days my mind forgets The

things I wish that I could hold But You don’t lose what

I forget You don’t let go when I lose hold

I don’t have to prove

That I deserve Your grace

I don’t have to earn What You already gave

Maybe sometimes faith is simply Choosing You again tonight And I won’t

call the valley empty Just because I wanted hills

I won’t call the waiting wasted Just because I’m waiting still The

battle doesn’t have to look finished For me to know whose hands

it’s in

So here’s my unanswered prayer

Here’s the person I am becoming

Here’s the little girl who trusted You And the woman

learning to believe I’m still here

And I’m still becoming

Still believing

Even when I can’t see what’s coming I have questions

I have tears

But You have carried me this far Through all these changing years

And tomorrow I will wake up And become a little more

Not who I thought I’d be But who You are making me

I’m still here. (mmmmm)