No Lessons Tonight

I've been growing as a person,

working on myself, Making mature decisions,

putting bad ideas on shelves.

Reading all the warning signs,

improving mental health— But tonight that responsible motherfucker needs some help.

(NOT TONIGHT!) TONIGHT I'M NOT LEARNING ANYTHING!

(NOT A DAMN THING!) Tomorrow I'll straighten my life back out— (NOT

TONIGHT!) I should probably think this through— (DO IT ANYWAY!) I've learned

enough lessons, got notebooks full,

Tonight common sense gets the night off too.

If tomorrow asks what the hell I was thinking— TONIGHT I'M NOT

LEARNING ANYTHING! Every mistake got a moral attached,

Every bad date turned to personal growth,

Every wrong road made me better somehow— Man,

I'm fucking exhausted from improving this much.

Can't spill coffee without finding my purpose,

Can't miss a train without calling it worth it.

Maybe disasters don't need interpretation,

Maybe sometimes stupid is the explanation.

Cancel the breakthrough, postpone reflection,

Tonight I'm ignoring my character development.

If wisdom comes knocking,

tell wisdom I'm out— I've got enough enlightenment cluttering the house.

(SEND IT BACK!) (Be responsible?) TOMORROW!

(Make good choices?) TOMORROW!

(Go home early?) HELL NO!

We're making progress. (BACKWARDS!) (NOT TONIGHT!) TONIGHT I'M NOT LEARNING ANYTHING!

(NOT A DAMN THING!) Tomorrow I'll straighten my life back out— (NOT

TONIGHT!) I should probably think this through— (DO IT ANYWAY!) I've learned

enough lessons, got notebooks full,

Tonight common sense gets the night off too.

If tomorrow asks what the hell I was thinking— TONIGHT I'M NOT

LEARNING ANYTHING!

Look, I know better,

that's what makes it fun,

Bad decisions hit different when consciously done.

I'm not lost, I'm deliberately taking the turn,

And if there's nothing to gain,

there's nothing to learn.

No inspirational quote when I wake up late,

No ‘everything happens for reasons’ today.

Sometimes everything happens 'cause somebody said ‘hey,

You wanna do something dumb?’ and I said ‘okay.’ That's freedom,

baby—temporarily reckless, Highly self-aware with questionable methods.

Tomorrow-me can review the evidence,

Tonight-me objects on grounds of relevance.

I've survived falls, fought battles,

moved mountains too, Escaped every trapdoor somebody pulled me through.

So forgive me if tonight I got nothing to prove— Personal growth

can wait. I got nothing to improve.

(Good decision?) BORING! (Bad decision?) INTERESTING!

(Life lesson?) NO!

Consequences? ...TOMORROW! Exactly.

TONIGHT I'M NOT LEARNING ANYTHING!

(NOT A DAMN THING!) Put enlightenment back on the shelf!

(TAKE THE NIGHT OFF!) I've been fixing,

growing, changing enough— Tonight I'm

perfectly fine fucking something up!

Tomorrow I'll wake up,

assess everything— But tonight?

I'M! NOT! LEARNING! ANYTHING!

I'll grow tomorrow. (MAYBE!)