Breaking Static

I keep a storm behind my teeth

Say I’m fine, then lose my speech (ahhhh)

I fold myself in smaller shapes

So nobody can see the breaks

I count my faults like rosary beads

And pray the noise will let me sleep

My hands are shaking,

not from fear From holding back for too many years If I

crack, let it be clean I’m tired of living in between (yeah)

I’m not your wreck to carry home

I’m not the silence in your throne

I bite the chain,

I draw the line

I break the lock inside my mind (ooh)

Back of my head,

it’s a crowded room Bad

news looping like a broken

tune I grind my teeth when I miss my mark I light

my

shame up just to see the dark No team,

just me and the mirror’s stare I swear

I’m moving but I’m still right there Let me out,

let me breathe, let me choose I’m done paying dues to the

inner bruise (oh-oh) (hey)

I read the messages I never sent

A thousand drafts of what I meant

I watch my courage turn to rust

Still, something in me says I must

My chest is a siren,

red and loud I’m done disappearing in the crowd If I fall,

I’ll hit the ground Then stand up to a different sound

I’m not your wreck to carry home

I’m not the silence in your throne I bite the chain,

I draw the line I break the lock inside my mind (yeah)

If I’m a fire,

I’ve been banked in ash If I’m a saint,

I’m a sinner in flash

Hold my name like a steady thread Till I believe what I

haven’t said (hummmm)

I’m sick of the spiral,

sick of the slip Sick of the smile on a shaking lip

I cut the cord,

I take the hit I won’t be owned by the noise I’m

in Count to four,

let the fever pass Then kick the door through the looking glass

Say it clear, no more maybe I’m my own rescue,

don’t try to save me

I’m not your wreck to carry home

I’m not the silence in your throne

I bite the chain,

I draw the line I break the lock inside my mind (oh-oh)