Broken Masquerade

There’s a shadow on the ceiling And a whisper in the walls

I’ve been counting every heartbeat I’ve been waiting for the fall There’s

a silence in the doorway Like it’s waiting for my name And

the mirror keeps reminding me I’m not the one I was before

this came I have worn these chains so long I forgot they

weren’t my skin And every time I close my eyes I feel

the darkness pulling in

But let it come Let it take its best shot I’ve already

lost Everything I thought I’d got So if the ground

Is waiting underneath— I’ll look it in the eyes Before it looks

at me

I’m not falling Even if the sky gives way Even if the

night comes calling

Even if I lose my way Let the whole world shake around

me Let the heavens turn to stone

I’m not falling And I will not face this alone No,

I’m not falling

No, I’m not falling Tonight

There’s a ghost behind the curtain And he’s wearing my old face

He keeps whispering the reasons Why I never should have stayed He

says, “You could have been somebody If you hadn’t been so weak”

But I’ve heard that voice a thousand times And tonight

it’s finally me who speaks You don’t get to call me broken

You don’t get to call me lost You don’t get to take

the pieces Then pretend you paid the cost I have crawled through

every nightmare I’ve survived what should have killed And if this is

where the story ends— Then I decide how it is filled

So let it come Let it take its best shot I’ve already

faced Everything I thought I’d not And if the ground

Is waiting underneath— I’ll plant my feet And refuse to leave

Maybe I was never meant to fly

Maybe wings were just another way to die

Maybe every scar I carry Is a map of where I’ve been

Maybe heaven isn’t waiting Maybe hell is closing in

Fall…

No. Fall…

I won’t.

FALL! I SAID— I WON’T!

I’M NOT FALLING! Even if the sky comes down!

I’M NOT FALLING! You

won’t bury me underground!

Let the thunder shake the mountains Let the angels lose their song

Let the darkness come and find me— I’VE BEEN FIGHTING IT THIS

LONG! I’M NOT FALLING!

I am more than what I’ve lost!

I’M NOT FALLING! I have counted every cost!

If the world wants me defeated

It can come and watch me stand— I’M NOT FALLING!

I’M NOT

FALLING! I’M NOT FALLING— I AM STILL HERE!

I’m still here…

I’m still here… And I’m not falling.