Always been

The biggest signs happened out of sight

Lying in bed at the edge of the night

Wishing I'd wake up as a girl the next day Imagining a

life that was hidden away

Thinking over and over again A wish that was quiet,

a secret back then

I buried those thoughts in the back of my mind

Believing that everyone felt them in time But apparently,

they don't (they don't)

When I finally realized what was true

It didn't feel like becoming someone new

It felt like I finally understood

Who I'd always been,

who I always would

(always been!) So I think of the chemical steps ahead

No longer running from what must be said

Every blocker and hormone to find my frame

Reclaiming my body, reclaiming my name

This is no small decision,

I know

But it is the path where I have to go

HRT will change my skin and my bones

No longer walking this dark road alone

I finally know who I am

(who I am!)