Fire and Sky

The California sun is setting,

orange streaks in the sky

Low clouds are creeping in,

as I sit by

You are blocked, the screen is dark and still not

But why is it still heavy,

against my will?

I’m building my hearth,

I’m claiming my space But in every corner,

I still see a trace Of your voice suddenly gone,

suddenly gone

Leaving me here with this “too much” promise.

I’m angry, but why do I seem to need you?

I hate what you said,

but I miss your words.

This is a messy truth,

this is a jagged line that hates you and misses you at

the same time. The turmoil of the heart,

not knowing how to follow In the silence of the night,

I’m drowning. I’m choosing my peace,

I’m playing the sky But why are there tears in my

eyes? (ahhhh)

You said I expected too much,

a weight I shouldn’t carry

While I was just trying to be steady.

August flare-ups, single and stings Pain in my veins and the pain

it causes. Walk away when the road gets steep

Now, your memories, I don’t want to stay.

But the silence is a liar,

it whispers your name

Even though I know we'll never be the same,

ever. It's not about going back,

let's be clear I've closed that door,

I've overcome that fear.

This is just the raw and honest pain of a Saturday night

Where the "fireplace" is cold,

despite the light. Mamba mentality,

but make it soft and true I'm allowed to be angry,

I'm allowed to feel The contradiction of a heart that rests but

hurts I miss the ghost of who you used to be.

I'm angry, but why

do I feel like I need you?

I'm angry at what you said,

but I miss your words.

It's a messy truth,

it's a jagged line Hating you and missing you at the same

time. The mess of the heart,

not knowing how to obey In the middle of the night,

I'm drowning. I choose my peace,

I choose the sky But why are there still tears in my

eyes? (ahhhh)

There are no more miles to count,

only the California air Sitting in the mess,

because the

truth is there. Anger and longing,

together in the dark Fire and sky,

even when the light is dark.

Just the heartbeat. Just the silence.

It's okay not to be okay tonight. (hummmm)