Absent Presence

I closed my eyes to find you (where did you go)

But you were not there

Just my inner sound and my breath

Numbness in my feet,

a phantom touch

I heard your voice,

your thoughts, your advice

But you were not there

Pictures and films, memories and fantasies Your imagination shaking me

Then they faded away

Into the quiet, into

the gray

Are you real

at

all?

Or just a shadow

on the wall?

(are you real)

A silent, massive space

Empty but holding a trace

I was nothing there

Just the calm in the air

But you were not there

So are you real?

(are you real)