Tape Haze

I’m staring

at the rocks on the ground again,

Tracing

circles

in the dirt where the light gets

in.

Your shadow is a heavy thing,

leaning on the frame,

I’m holding my tongue,

I’m scared to say your name.

I’ve spent my whole life building up these barricades,

Counting down the hours till the safety fades.

You look at me like you can read through me like you

see me And suddenly I'm freezing speechless with words.

I don't know how to stand here without hiding my face,

You're wrecking all the logic in my hiding place.

My hands are shaking,

tucked inside my sleeves,

Trying to look unbothered while the whole room breathes.

If I take a step closer,

will the floor give out?

Is this the quiet answer to a lifetime of doubt?

And you’re the sudden pull,

the tide against the pier,

The only one I want,

and the one I fear.

I’ve spent so long building walls just to disappear,

Now the mess in my head is starting to clear.

Yeah, you’re the one—don't know how to act,

Falling for a danger I can't take back.

I look away when our eyes meet for too long,

Like looking at the sun or playing back a song That hurts

too good to leave on repeat.

My heart is hammering a hole right through my feet.

You didn't break the door down,

you just walked right in,

Past the passwords, past the walls,

past the discipline. And it terrifies me how you make me feel

safe,

Like a ghost in a body finally taking up space.

My hands are shaking,

tucked inside my sleeves,

Trying to look unbothered while the whole room breathes.

If I take a step closer,

will the floor give out?

Is this the quiet answer to a lifetime of doubt?

And you’re the sudden pull,

the tide against the pier,

The only one I want,

and the one I fear.

I’ve spent so long building walls just to disappear,

Now the static in my head is starting to clear.

Yeah, you’re the one—don't know how to act,

Falling for a danger I can't take back.

What if I stopped running?

What if I let you stay?

What if the heavy armor just melts away?

I’m so used to bracing for the other shoe to drop,

With you, I just want the clock to stop.

...(Soft whisper)... Just stop.

And you’re the sudden pull,

the tide against the pier,

The only one I want,

and the one I fear.

I’ve spent so long building walls just to disappear,

Now the static in my head is starting to clear.

Yeah, you’re the one—don't know how to act,

Falling for a danger I can't take back.

Rocks on the ground...

You're the exception.

I'm not running anymore.