After the Spark

{warm clean electric guitar chords,

slow acoustic piano notes}

Found a photo

from that August trip Your hair was wet,

my arm around your waist

We couldn't even

order dinner then Without our fingers finding every place

Now we sleep on

separate schedules

Touch each other reaching for the light

It's not that I don't want you anymore It's just that wanting

takes a different fight

After the spark what's left to hold

When the fire

becomes the coal

After the spark am I still here

Or am I chasing who we were

I keep comparing

you to someone gone A younger version

with no bills to pay

She didn't know my

mother's medication She never saw me

on a broken day

It isn't fair

to hold you to a ghost

Who only lived

when nothing was at stake

The girl I fell for

didn't have a reason

To stay with someone hard to love awake (ooh)

After the spark what's left to hold

When the fire

becomes the coal

After the spark am I still here

Or am I chasing who we were

Maybe desire doesn't disappear

It just gets quieter with the years And what I'm missing

isn't you

It's the version of myself who had nothing left to lose

After the spark there's still a glow

Not a fire

but enough to know

After the spark

I'm choosing slow

Over burning out again

below

{clean electric guitar fades out,

acoustic piano decay}