I Became the Door

{whispered}

Open {piano enters} There

is no door {beat drops} Then become one

The knocking moved beneath my ribs

A second pulse against my skin

It spoke in words I somehow knew Like something old was breaking

through

I asked what waited on the side

It said, “The self you keep denied” The room bent inward with

each breath

And every shadow left its depth

One step closer No floor below

Something opened But I didn’t go {charging strings swelling} I didn’t open

the door I became it Let the unknown pour Through the shape

I was before I didn’t open the door

I became it

Now every part of me Is somewhere I have never been Open

Open

I didn’t open the door

I became it The pressure lifted from my name

Then settled deeper in my veins

The voice no longer spoke within

It used my mouth,

it wore my skin

I felt the ceiling split apart

A new horizon crossed my heart

The fear was sweet,

the change was slow

I lost the need to stay in control

One step closer No turning back

Light came through me Then shattered into black

{build up} Take the weight Take the name Take the face

I learned to fake Break the frame

Bend the form Let me die

Without being gone {vocal harmonies multiplying} Something sacred Something wrong Something waiting

All along Through my blood Through my bones I am the threshold

I am the road No lock No key No distance Left in

me {heavy

guitar breakdown} I didn’t open the door

I became it Let the whole world pour Through the person I

was before

I didn’t open the door I became it If transformation has a

cost Let it take what I have lost Open Open I didn’t

open the door I became it {sudden drop to quiet}

Now the room moves when I breathe Every wall bends into me

Power tastes like something new

But I only came to look for you

I reached across the altered light Expecting you on the other side

My hand found nothing

Only the empty shape Where you should have been

{melancholy saxophone solo}