Suffocated In Pink

{door locking sound followed by low pulsating distorted hum,

lo-fi static crackle}

Can't get out the room,

can't get out the bed

I need a change soon,

can't get out my head

Demons at my neck,

losing the fight

I can't go outside,

not tonight, not tonight

{low strained exhausted female vocal,

close-mic intimacy, subtle rhythmic stutter on

lose the fight} Tell me I'm worth something,

tell me I ain't bad

Tired of being the mirror to the life that I had

Tired of being broken,

tired of being the mess

"Do this shit," I need the formula for the distress

Sober last week, relapsing in the dark

Leaving all the pieces,

leaving all the mark {rapid desperate conversational female delivery,

glitch distortion on drugs in the backseat} When the lights go out,

will you love me still?

Even when I'm like my dad,

is it a bitter pill?

Tired of being sick,

the kind a bag won't fix Fame is lonely,

running out of all the tricks

Don't live life like me,

chasing the high

I'm just coasting, waiting for the sky to die {slow deliberate heavy-hearted

female vocal, atmospheric hollow effect on Mom always told me}

I'm starting to think...

That I'm broken for good.

I can't get out.

I don't know if I ever should.

{sparse instrumentation, single melancholic synth note looping,

whisper very close-mic}

Can't get out.

100% Tiguidou.

The room

is the only reality I know.

{raw intimate

2am bedroom

studio vibe, fading into silence,

phone vibrating then silence}