Until I Lost Me

I still remember the day we met.

You walked into my office wearing your work uniform.

You smiled…

and somehow my whole world smiled back.

{warm electric piano chord swells} You came to rent an apartment,

just another face at first.

A broken faucet became a phone call,

and those conversations slowly became us.

Then one afternoon my car wouldn’t start.

You stayed after work to help.

The next day you fixed it,

and I thanked you with dinner.

You told me you had a girlfriend,

but your heart had already checked out.

I said, “If you’re serious about me,

don’t leave unfinished business behind.”

The next day I watched you move her out.

Then you called… And I said yes.

{soft kick drum enters} You swept me off my feet.

We built a family.

You bought the house… and I made it a home.

I thought forever had found me.

{string quartet swells} I loved you

until I lost me.

(yeah) Somewhere between forever and reality.

I kept giving all I had while pieces of me disappeared.

I loved you…

Until I couldn’t find myself anymore.

{soaring vocals}

Then our beautiful baby came,

and my body changed.

I struggled with the weight,

but I never stopped loving you.

You said, “I married a one-hundred-twenty-pound woman.” Those words echoed louder than

every compliment I’d never hear again.

I stopped feeling beautiful.

Stopped feeling wanted. Stopped feeling like your wife.

You stopped reaching for me.

Stopped touching me. And loneliness moved into our home.

{drums drop out, Rhodes only} I loved you

until I lost me.

I needed comfort,

but I looked in the wrong place.

I crossed a line I’ll

never be proud of.

(ohhh) Pain answered pain… And everybody lost. I

carried the shame. I confessed the truth.

I hoped honesty might save what was left.

Instead… You carried revenge.

You threatened him. Then you broke my heart one woman at a

time. Every betrayal whispered,

“Now you know how I felt.” But all it did… was bury

us deeper. {intense orchestral strings build} I loved you

until I lost me.

We forgot how to fight for each other.

We only fought against each other.

The house was still standing… But our marriage had already fallen.

I still wish we could have found our way back.

But some fires burn too long… Until nothing remains.

{soaring guitar solo outro} You were the love of my life.

I was the woman

who made your house a home.

Somewhere between love… Pride… Hurt… And forgiveness left too late… We lost

each other.

And somewhere along the way…

I lost me.

{quiet acoustic piano fading out}