Until I Lost Me

I still remember the day we met.

You walked into my office wearing your work uniform.

You smiled…

and somehow my whole world smiled back.

You came to rent an apartment,

just another face at first.

A broken faucet became a phone call,

and those conversations slowly became us.

Then one afternoon my car wouldn’t start.

You stayed after work to help.

The next day you fixed it,

and I thanked you with dinner.

You told me you had a girlfriend,

but your heart had already checked out.

I said, “If you’re serious about me,

don’t leave unfinished business behind.”

The next day I watched you move her out.

Then you called… And I said yes.

You swept me off my feet.

We built a family.

You bought the house… and I made it a home.

I thought forever had found me.

I loved you

until I lost me.

(yeah) Somewhere between forever and reality.

I kept giving all I had while pieces of me disappeared.

I loved you…

Until I couldn’t find myself anymore.

Then our beautiful baby came,

and my body changed.

I struggled with the weight,

but I never stopped loving you.

You said, “I married a one-hundred-twenty-pound woman.” Those words echoed louder than

every compliment I’d never hear again.

I stopped feeling beautiful.

Stopped feeling wanted. Stopped feeling like your wife.

You stopped reaching for me.

Stopped touching me. And loneliness moved into our home.

I loved you

until I lost me.

I needed comfort,

but I looked in the wrong place.

I crossed a line I’ll

never be proud of.

(ohhh) Pain answered pain… And everybody lost. I

carried the shame. I confessed the truth.

I hoped honesty might save what was left.

Instead… You carried revenge.

You threatened him. Then you broke my heart one woman at a

time. Every betrayal whispered,

“Now you know how I felt.” But all it did… was bury

us deeper.

I loved you

until I lost me.

We forgot how to fight for each other.

We only fought against each other.

The house was still standing… But our marriage had already fallen.

I still wish we could have found our way back.

But some fires burn too long… Until nothing remains.

You were the love of my life.

I was the woman

who made your house a home.

Somewhere between love… Pride… Hurt… And forgiveness left too late… We lost

each other.

And somewhere along the way…

I lost me.