The Weight of Healing

I placed a heavy shadow

where we used to have the sun

And hurt the only man that I have ever truly loved

I let my broken pieces get the best of who I am

And let you down when I was supposed to be your man

I never meant to be the one to make you feel so

small

I’d trade my very breath to be the one to catch your

fall

Thomas, I am fighting

to be a better man for you

To wash away the pain

the other guys put you through I know the dark is hunting

us, I know the scars run deep But you’re the only promise

that my soul intends to keep So take the time to heal

the hurt, let the damage come undone

I'll be waiting at the edges,

praying we can still be one

You carried so much history

before I took your hand

Surviving through a heavy past I try to understand

I wanted to protect you from the ghosts you couldn't shake

It kills me that I added to the quiet of your ache

The memories keep lingering,

waiting in the cold

But the love I hold for you is something that will never

fold

I don’t expect forgiveness in the blinking of an eye

I’ll stand out in the distance underneath the open sky

I’m doing all the heavy work to change the man I was

Because this distance shows me what a real heartbreak does I’ll be

the steady ground for you,

whenever you feel weak

I’ll be the quiet shelter that your wounded heart can seek

Thomas, I am fighting

to be a better man for you

To wash away the pain

the other guys put you through I know the dark is hunting

us, I know the scars run deep But you’re the only promise

that my soul intends to keep So take the time to heal

the hurt, let the damage come undone

I'll be waiting at the edges,

praying we can still be one

Take all the time you need.

I’m not going anywhere.

I'll stand between you and the past.

I love you, Thomas.

Whenever you're ready... I'll be waiting.