Fading Heartbeats

{intimate fingerpicked acoustic guitar intro,

soft vinyl crackle} (ahhhh) {low cello pad enters} The first time our

eyes met, you stole my heart without even trying.

The first time you smiled at me,

you made me feel like I finally belonged.

You said you had no one,

and I promised I’d never let you feel alone.

Don’t cry…

My heart was never angry

at you.

Even if we’re miles apart,

my love keeps pulling you back to me.

(keeps pulling you back) {soft brushed snare drum enters,

swell in dynamics} They always said we’d have to walk away,

that distance would erase

what we had.

Now they smile watching us fall apart.

I’m hurt…

You’re angry…

And somehow neither of us understood what the other was trying to

say. Maybe it doesn’t matter anymore.

If I’m honest… I know I made mistakes.

But what difference does it make now?

The only thing I feel every day

is the space you left behind.

Four months ago, I promised

I’d celebrate your birthday by your side.

Four days before it came,

you made me swear I’d never show you my face again.

I’m dying on the inside…

You know that. I’m fighting with myself every single day… You know

that too.

{building strings

and driving acoustic strumming} Please

come save me. I’m becoming someone I don’t recognize.

Hold me together one more time… I’m slowly destroying myself.

(save me) {peak dynamic,

weeping pedal steel, soaring strings} Maybe I only have a few days

left.

Maybe after that,

you won’t remember me anymore.

Maybe after a few more days… even my heartbeat

will decide to let go.

{acoustic guitar fades out,

heartbeat-like soft kick drum

decays to silence}