Apogee

So let me go,

let me go — I’m rising to apogee Farthest from the gravity

that used to be my need Let my light go thin and

gold and slow across the sea Of everyone I’m leaving — I’m

alone at apogee

Halos in the window where your name used to be

Numbers on the mirror keeping distance clean

I traded every warm thing for a colder kind of free

Now the constant that I’m orbiting is nothing I can see

And the ground I used to pray to is a pale blue

dot Every voice that ever loved me is a fading thought Higher

— till the signal’s almost lost

So let me go,

let me go — I’m rising to apogee

Farthest from the gravity that used to be my need

All my light goes thin and gold and slow across the sea

Of everything I wanted — I am finally free

But what if the top of the sky is a longer way

to fall

What if the cold I called gold was never gold at all

I can hear you,

small and far, still calling out my name

Like a star that died for years but

never quit the flame

Apogee…

apogee… The highest that I climb… the least of me…

So come and pull me home — I’m done with apogee

Done with all the gravity I taught myself to flee

Let my light come warm and low and slow across the sea

Of everything I ran from

— bring me back to me

Blue on the glass… your hand back on the wire…

I was done with leaving — done with rising higher