After the Quiet

A storm rose in my chest

Faster than I could name,

My breath fell out of rhythm,

Nothing felt the same.

My hands were shaking shadows,

My thoughts were running blind,

And every door inside me

Closed at the same time.

In that moment, I was drifting,

Far from who I wanna be,

Trying to outrun the darkness

While it was carrying me.

It wasn't me

speaking, It was the panic in my veins,

Throwing sparks into the silence,

Setting fire to the rain.

If my words ever hurt you,

Know my heart was somewhere else,

Lost inside a burning room,

Trying to save itself.

The night kept pressing harder,

Heavy on my skin,

Every fear I'd buried

Found a way back in.

I know you saw the chaos,

The side I couldn't hide,

But you deserve the gentle soul Still living deep inside.

And I'm still learning how to stay

When the darkness fills the room,

Still learning how to breathe again Before I come undone.

Still learning how to carry love With steadier hands than these,

So when I look into your eyes You only see the peace.

You deserve the calm in me,

The steady light I know,

And every day I'm finding it,

A little more than before.

If another storm comes calling,

I'll try not to run away,

I'll remember who I am

When the panic starts to speak.