

What happened hurt
You know it did It slept in my ribs Like a feral
kid What happened mattered
More than my name Made a home
In smoke and flame It took the shape
Of my spare room wall Sat in my throat Like a declined
call I tried to name it
It turned to glass Slipped through my hands
And split too fast Like water on nails
Like ash in rain Every small hour Feels twice the pain I
lost the one thing
I could not hide
It tore me open
From the inside
The room forgot your shadow
But the paint still knows your name
Every door I leave half-open
Swings back to you a gain
I keep finding your fingerprints In the dust between my thoughts You
left nothing here worth keeping
So why does everything feel lost?
I pass that corner
And the air turns thin Like the world got peeled And let
the dark rush in No grand goodbye
No holy sign Just an empty room That still tastes like mine
A chair with dust
A bent gold frame The walls still lean Toward my old shame
I tried to name it
It broke to salt Left little moons In the chambered vault Now
every small hour
Feels open wide I lost the one thing
I could not hide
The room forgot your shadow
But the paint still knows your name
Every door I leave half-open
Swings back to you a gain I keep finding your fingerprints In
the dust between my thoughts You left nothing here worth keeping
So why does everything feel lost?
And I hate How clearly I see
The bend of the hurt The teeth of the key It split
my breath Like cracked black ice Left my heart in two
Then wanted it twice But here I am My bruised-up heart Holding
a truth That glows in the dark
The ghost in the wallpaper
Still breathes when the house goes still
I pull the thorn out every evening
It grows back against my will
You took the fire when you left me Left the smoke inside
my lungs And every night I swear I've buried you
Then wake up still holding on