Cry now laugh later

Funniest one in the room but I’m dyin inside Every joke that

I tell is just somewhere to hide When I’m roastin myself I’m

confessin the crime But they laughin too hard just to read between

lines I’m the life of the party while death’s on my mind

I perform for the crowd and they leave every time When the

curtain come down and the laughter subside I’m alone with the dark

on the edge of my mind

Every smile on my face is a burial site I been tellin

you everything, screamin in plain sight Every punchline I drop is a

flare in the night But they say “he too funny to not

be alright

But they say he dramatic,

he just want to be loud Yeah I wanted attention — what’s

wrong with that now?

Whole life bein funny just to drown out the doubt,

Now I’m laughin alone at the edge comin down,

When the abyss finally calls and the laughter run out,

Tell me who gon show up — bet it’s nobody now

I laugh so I don’t cry Tell em I’m fine but I’m

hangin by a thread tonight They cheer when I’m on,

disappear when I’m on the line I just need someone to show

up — show up one time

She watchin from distance,

she stuck in the sand,

Wants to reach but she sinkin,

she can’t give her hand,

So I mouth “close your eyes,

it’s alright, I got this” and,

Let the fingernails break and I loosen my grip,

Every drop of my blood was a word on my lips,

I been dyin out loud on a regular tip,

But they say he dramatic,

he just want to be loud Yeah I wanted attention — what’s

wrong with that now?

Whole life bein funny just to drown out the doubt,

Now I’m laughin alone at the edge comin down,

When the abyss finally calls and the laughter run out,

Tell me who gon show up — bet it’s nobody now I

laugh so I don’t cry Tell em I’m fine but I’m hangin

by a thread tonight They cheer when I’m on,

disappear when I’m on the line I just need someone to show

up — show up one time

I laugh so I don’t cry (show

up one time)