Chaos Anthem

Okay. (heh)

Let's try this again.

They said smile more,

be less, shrink down,

shut up So I swallowed it whole and I threw the whole

cup up I'm the thing your therapy never prepared you for Little

girl lost with a nail gun and a hardware store Everybody's normal

'til they read what I wrote Now they're clutching their pearls and

I'm clutching their throat Don't call it a breakdown,

this is a debut The villain origin starts where the good girl

see-through I don't want your forgiveness,

I want your attention I'm the thing you created when you refused

to listen Go ahead and call me crazy,

call me lost, call me wrong I've been gone since forever and

I've never been this strong

Mommy issues, daddy issues,

pick a side I got both Built a kingdom out of kindling

and a little self-loathing I over-explain,

I over-feel, I overthrow governments in my head Medicated,

caffeinated, still somehow under-fed Everybody's got a hot take,

honey mine runs cold I was twenty-two and unraveling and being consoled

By a playlist and a parking lot and bad fluorescent lights So

yeah I'm a little unhinged — have been since the nineties (ha!)

Pretty privilege? Baby I've got pretty violence You can keep your peace

— I'll keep my defiance

I don't want your forgiveness,

I want your attention I'm the thing you created when you refused

to listen Go ahead and call me crazy,

call me lost, call me wrong I've been gone since forever and

I've never been this strong

And yeah, some of this is funny And yeah,

some of this is real And I learned to make you laugh

at it So you wouldn't see me feel But I felt it

— oh I felt it all

Every joke was a wall

And the wall came down,

and I'm still here (ahhhh)

I'm every girl they told to be polite and then ignored I'm

every thought they medicated and declared a disorder I'm the trailer park

Cassandra, I'm the oracle in denim I'm the thing that happens when

you systematically condemn I'm not your cautionary tale,

I'm not your cry for help I'm the consequence arriving,

better buckle up yourself You built this,

you built this, you built every brick And I just lit the

match — (hahaha) — sick So bow down or burn up,

there is no in-between I'm the best worst thing that you have

ever seen

I don't want your forgiveness

I want your attention (yeah)

I've been gone since forever And I've never...

been... this strong