Shadows in Blue

Some mornings

weigh

more

than my name I count the ceiling till the room feels safe

I leave the dishes in the sink again

Let the phone light die beside my bed

Everybody asks me where I've been

I say I'm tired and turn my head

There is a heaviness I cannot show

A weather living underneath my clothes

But somewhere under all this rain

A little part of me remains If I can breathe one minute

more

Maybe I can reach the door

Hold on, my heart,

hold on

Even when the day feels gone

I am not the hurt I carry

I am still becoming strong Hold on,

my heart, hold on

Till the morning finds me home

I told a friend I couldn't trust my mind

She sat with me and didn't try to fix

Just made some tea and stayed a little while

Like being seen was medicine

I wrote a list of reasons I should stay

The first one said,

not every hour feels this way

And somewhere under all this rain A kinder voice repeats my name

If I can ask for help tonight

Maybe I can stay in sight

Hold on, my heart,

hold on

Even when the day feels gone

I am not the hurt I carry

I am still becoming strong Hold on,

my heart, hold on

There is help, and I can call Hold on,

my heart, hold on I am more than this at all

If you hear this from a quiet place

You do not have to disappear

Take my hand across the hard hour

We can make it over here

Hold on, my heart,

hold on

I will meet myself with grace

One small breath, then one more step Till I can see my

face