Halfway

I saw your name and let it sit

Not proud

of

it You think I vanish just to see if you chase Truth

is, I freeze when it starts feeling safe I read your paragraphs,

then lose my nerve Like every answer costs more than the words

I know it looks cold from your side

I was scared to be wanted right

I kept saying I was busy But busy was a shield You

were asking for a real thing

I did not know how to feel If I made you wait

in silence That silence was not peace

I was doing less than I felt

Holding back and hurting myself

You were reaching through the phone

I kept acting like I was grown

If you thought I did not care

I was scared, I was scared

I told my friends you moved too fast They never heard what

I held back

I liked the way you noticed details That made me nervous,

made me bail

Every joke I left on read Was something sweeter in my head

I’m not doing this alone

You don’t get love on cruise control

If I’m the only one who shows Then I’m letting go,

letting go

I cannot fix it with a pretty excuse You needed effort,

I needed proof

Maybe we both kept score When we should have opened the door

I was doing less than I felt You were tired of reaching

alone

Now I am meeting you halfway If there is still a way

back home

We do not get love on cruise control We both show up

or let it go

Half my fear and half your hope Meet me where the real

ones grow Halfway, halfway Meet me halfway