Shadow Confessions

I made it out breathing,

but I don't feel free

I made it through,

but I ain't alright

Still counting cracks in the ceiling at night

If I go quiet,

don't ask me why

I'm still at war with the voice inside

I keep receipts in my ribs,

every sin got a timestamp Pressure in my chest like a fist

with a vice clamp I been dodging sleep,

watching doors, checking blinds back Told them I was fine,

then I lied through a slight laugh Guilt got a blade and

it carves when the room stills Mind doing laps round the names

that I couldn't heal Fast with the mask,

but the cracks make the truth spill Voice in my skull saying

quit, I refuse still I can stand in the wreckage

Still not know what it means

I can win every fight

And lose what is left of me

I made it through,

but I ain't alright

Still counting cracks in the ceiling at night

If I go quiet,

don't ask me why

I'm still at war with the voice inside I

learned to smile with my teeth locked tight

Hold my breath when the floorboards bite

You call it strength,

I call it staying alive

Some days I pray just to make it to five

I carry names that I never say Wash my hands but the

cold won't fade If love is a room,

I wait at the side Still trying to quiet the war in

my mind

Tell me I am safe

I don't believe it yet

Tell me I was brave I only paid the debt

If I close my eyes It all comes back again I made

it through, but I ain't alright

Still counting cracks in the ceiling at night

If I go quiet,

don't ask me why

I'm still at war with the voice inside

I made it through,

but I ain't alright

Still fighting me on the inside

I made it through