Still Alive

(ah!) I can feel it waking up

again

I keep a list of the sins in the skin of my

palms Ink in the cuts and it stings when I clench Panic

in patterns, I fracture the facts Then I bury the truth in

the teeth of defense Rapid relapse,

rabbit-trap chest Every bad memory barking my name I snap at the

ceiling, I bargain with pain Like maybe my damage can still be

contained I hear my own name like a warning sign I bite

my tongue till the copper tastes kind If I lose this fight

inside my mind Who gets to wear my face tonight?

My head is a house with the doors kicked in I keep

running but the walls cave in

If I survive me,

if I get through tonight Tell my worst side I’m still alive

Still alive

Tell my worst side I’m

still alive I

learned to smile with a storm in my ribs Held all the

blame till it broke my hands You call it rage,

I call it proof I lived I crawled through the fire they

told me I planned No more apologies carved in my sleep No

more pretending the wound is a crown I am the scream getting

back on its feet You built the cage,

I am burning it down I won’t kneel to the noise in

my bones

I won’t feed what follows me home

Take my fear, take my name

I came back through the flame (yeah) I came back through the

flame My head is a house with the doors kicked in I

keep running but the walls cave in If I survive me,

if I get through tonight Tell my worst side I’m still alive

Still alive

Tell my worst side I’m still alive

I’m still alive

If I wake up wearing my own face

That is enough for today