Smoke and Secrets

(mmm) (ahhh) Late night scrolling through your name again

Telling myself I'm good but it's all pretend

You with her and I'm here losing sleep

Swearing I don't care but the feeling's deep

I push you away then I pull you close

This back and forth is taking its toll

I don't need nobody,

that's what I say

But I'm dying inside when you look away

Want your love but I hide it so well

Pretending I'm fine while I'm going through hell

Jealous of the way she makes you smile

I sabotage the good with my own denial

Craving your touch but I act so cold

This insecurity is getting old

I don't need nobody,

that's what I say

But I'm dying inside when you look away

Want your love but I hide it so well

Pretending I'm fine while I'm going through hell

Maybe one day I'll say it out loud

But for now I'll keep my head in the clouds (mmm) (ahhh)