Phases of Me

I love all the phases of me

When I am thinking of you

I know

in this life we can’t be

Even though things feel true

One day I’m without thoughts Or so I convince myself I can’t

seem to call the shots

To which thought reveals itself

I can show up boldly

You may ignore or notice

It’s not you it’s me

I have to honor my practice

As my feelings ebb and flow

I can’t stop but wonder

How long can I go

In my internal world I ponder

It’s quite confusing in here

I am not sure where to

Where I am is not clear In my mind I have no

clue Emotion is the heart of me

I know I can’t always rely

What

I feel that could be

I know better not to deny

I can’t reveal myself now

Not knowing if time will come

Praying I won’t break a vow

Integrity is where I come from

So here I am just being

It’s not always easy except

I owe myself this feeling

To let go so I can accept