Static Prayers

White noise

Red eyes

Ceiling fan spinning like warning signs

One room

Too loud

I whisper up, but it won’t come down

My mind got wires running wall to wall

I hear one change and I catch it all

A little shift, a little pause

Now I’m searching for the hidden cause

I smile clean while the inside sparks

Keep my panic folded in the dark

Everybody sees the quiet face

Nobody sees the alarm bells race I been the calm in a

crowded storm

The one who holds when the floor gets torn

But when I’m alone and the lights turn blue

I don’t know who I’m praying to I don’t need a miracle

I just need a minute I don’t need the whole sky I

just need a signal in it Hands on my chest Trying to

breathe through the wires

Talking to the dark Like the dark might answer Static prayers in

my head again I keep calling,

but the line won’t

bend Heart too loud,

room too thin Static prayers,

can you let

me in?

Static prayers on a broken wave I say “I’m fine” when I’m

not that brave If there’s peace somewhere in the air Send it

through these static prayers

Static, static Can you hear me?

Static, static

Come near me Static,

static Through

the air I keep sending

Static prayers

I read the tone before the words arrive

Feel the weather in another person’s eyes

One small change and I lose my ground

Trying not to let the spiral out

I don’t mean to guard every door

I just know what leaving sounded like before

I don’t mean to test every light

I just learned that safe can change overnight

Some days I’m built out of held-back tears

Some days I’m brave just staying here

Some days I laugh so nobody knows How heavy it gets when

the windows close I don’t need a miracle I just need a

minute I don’t need the whole sky I just need a signal

in it Hands on my chest Trying to breathe through the wires

Talking to the dark Like the dark might answer

Static prayers in my head again I keep calling,

but the line won’t bend Heart too loud,

room too thin Static prayers,

can you let

me in?

Static prayers on a broken wave I say “I’m fine” when I’m

not that brave If there’s peace somewhere in the air Send it

through these static prayers

Tell me I’m not just noise

Tell me I’m not too far

Tell me there’s a quiet place Underneath these racing thoughts

Tell me I can lay this down Tell me I can close

my eyes Tell me I don’t have to earn

One peaceful night

I been carrying thunder With a careful face Trying to make home

Out of empty space So if anything listens Anywhere Meet me in

the static Meet me there

Static prayers in my head again

I keep calling, but the line won’t bend Heart too loud,

room too thin Static

prayers, can you let me in?

Static prayers on a broken wave I say “I’m fine” when I’m

not that brave If there’s peace somewhere in the air Send it

through these static prayers

White noise

Red eyes

Ceiling fan spinning like warning signs

One room

Too loud

Still I pray

Through the static now