Bittersweet Standstill

(ooh) I still feel you in the room

You left your cup by the sink and it hurts like proof

Half of your hair on my hoodie,

half of me wants the truth

I said I'm good to my people,

then drank by myself instead

Your name got stuck in my teeth,

in every word unsaid

I took the long way home just to pass your street again

Acting tough in my coat while the rain got through my skin

Love made a fool look holy,

then tore the frame apart

Now every quiet second hits the hardest in the dark

If I call your name,

will the silence answer back

If I close my eyes,

will your hands come off my past

I keep breaking where you kissed me last

We froze in a standstill,

love on the edge Two hearts in the doorway,

one foot off the ledge You taste like goodbye and the things

I can't kill

I reach and you fade,

and the room goes still Standstill,

standstill Tell me how to hold what never will

You wore your anger gentle,

like silk across a bruise

I wore desire reckless,

like something made to lose

Sweet on my tongue for a second,

then gone before the dawn

Your touch was a little religion,

then the faith was gone Now I fold up the memories like

dresses in a case Trying not to taste the want still living

in this place

You said forever softly,

but soft can still deceive

So why does my body wait for what my mind won't believe

I gave you the worst of me

You gave me what I need Now your ghost on my sheets

won't leave Tell me who breaks first tonight

We froze in a standstill,

love on the edge Two hearts in the doorway,

one foot off the ledge

You taste like goodbye and the things I can't kill I reach

and you fade, and the room goes still Standstill,

standstill Tell me how to hold what never will

Still in the doorway

Still with your name

Still where you left

me (ooh)