Day two
of you sleeping
In another room far from me
But somehow
I still feel you close Like your heartbeat still lives in these
walls quietly
My chest keeps racing
faster than it should
My body feels strange,
my head too full
Eyes heavy, soul shaking Trying to act normal when I’m breaking
And every time you walk away from me
It feels like being pushed back into that dark room again
That unknown darkness
The same devil staring through my skin
You see me
walking around
like I’m okay But I’m really crying inside,
falling apart
silently
My words keep stammering
My heart feels too heavy to carry
I swear I never wanted to hurt you
Never wanted us to become this pain
I just kept trying to hold everything together
While losing myself in the rain
I really
love you
More than these tired eyes can explain
I just want to somehow fix this
Before we disappear into the strain
Because without you
beside me
My spirit feels missing
when the sunlight fades
Like a lonely sunflower dipping its head
Waiting for warmth that never came