Breaking Through Hell
Yeah... Another night in the cold,
another sunrise
I'm
hoping to see. Don't know if I'm gonna
wake up tomorrow, but somehow God
keeps waking me. I been living where the angels don't fly,
where demons know your
name... Trying to
find a way out of hell without becoming hell myself.
I woke up in the street with the frost on my face
Had a hole in my soul that the drugs couldn't chase Had
a bottle in my hand,
had the pain in my veins Had a war in my head
and a storm in my brain
Every night was survival,
every morning uncertain Wondering if I'm gonna wake when the sun hit
the curtains Except there wasn't no curtains,
just concrete and sirens Cold nights,
broken fights, bad choices and violence.
Had to fight for respect when respect wasn't given Had to shoot
back sometimes just to make it to living But the more that
I fought, the more darkness I carried More bridges got burned,
more burdens I buried
I pushed away the people who were praying I'd change
They reached for my heart while I ran from the pain
I loved 'em but hurt 'em,
then hated myself Kept drowning my soul just to numb what I
felt. Drugs made me fearless,
booze made me careless Pain made me ruthless,
betrayal made me selfish Wanted to be king,
couldn't conquer my demons Wanted purpose so bad,
couldn't recognize meaning
I'm coming out the darkness,
trying to find my way
Praying for forgiveness for the things I did yesterday
I don't know where my next meal's coming from But I still
look toward the heavens when the day is done I been broken,
been bleeding, been lost in the night
(lost in the night) I'm still here breathing,
fighting toward the light!
Woke up in a coma,
head trauma, confused Couldn't tell if I was dreaming or the life
that I knew
Pain running through my skull like a train through a tunnel Still
fighting for tomorrow while I'm buried in trouble I thought death was
the ending, but something didn't want me go
Another shot at life paid in blood,
I ain't letting it go I'm grateful and appreciate
what God gave me Standing in the grace that decided to save
me.
If God can forgive me,
maybe I can forgive me too I can't save the whole world
till I figure out what to do So I'm holding on,
holding on
Even when everything feels wrong If we stand together,
maybe we can make it through
I was dying in the darkness,
now I'm fighting to break through!
Praying for forgiveness for the things I did yesterday
I don't know where my next meal's coming from But I still
look toward the heavens when the day is done I been broken,
been bleeding, been lost in the night
(holding on) Still here
breathing,
stepping into the light!
From hell to light...
Still breathing.
I appreciate what God gave me. (ahhhh)