Seen Before Ready

Rain on the awning

Glass on the street

I see every version

Walking back with me

I left before the room went quiet Before they named what I

had said

The elevator held my breathing Like a light above my head

Corner store was closed and shining

Every window had my face

I kept trying not to look there

But the city gave me space

Maybe I was not ruined Maybe I was only seen

Maybe all this weather Was already under me

I'm seen before ready

Every feeling on the walls

I can watch the old me running

But I don't have to follow

Seen before ready

Rain where I used to hide

If the whole world sees me shaking

Let it know I'm still alive

There was lipstick on a napkin Someone's coat across a chair

All the words I tried to swallow

Found their way into the air I thought shame would come and

keep me

Like a hand against my throat But the morning hit the storefronts

And I saw myself come home Maybe I was not broken Maybe

I was finally clear

Maybe all the glass between us Was the thing that brought me

here

I'm seen before ready

Every feeling on the walls

I can watch the old me running

But I don't have to follow

Seen before ready

Rain where I used to hide

If the whole world sees me shaking

Let it know I'm still alive

I used to call it danger Any room that let me show

I used to love the curtains More than anyone could know

Now the city keeps reflecting

Every bruise and every spark

If I have to be this visible

Let me be it in the dark

Weather under glass

Every feeling on the walls

I can see the old me waving But I don't have to

follow

Weather

under glass Rain where I used to hide If the whole world

sees me shaking

Let it know I'm still alive

Weather under glass

Blue into gold

I am not the secret

I was trying to

hold Rain on the awning

Glass on the street

Every version walking

Finally lets me breathe