Side Plans

I can't understand

How you can say you care

Then go on a thousand dates

Like tomorrow isn't there

You told me you deleted

Every dating app you had

Those are words I wanted to believe But finding you there made

me sad

I know we're only getting closer

I know we're not a thing

But you made me think that maybe

This could mean something

You said there were no side plans So I stopped looking too

I thought if I gave you my attention

You'd give me yours back too

So why am I

the one Who's standing still?

While you're out there Seeing who you feel

You say you like me

But you're looking everywhere

And maybe I was stupid For thinking you would care If this

was never serious You could've let me know

'Cause I would've kept my options I would've let other people close

But I thought you meant it

When you said you had no side plans Now I'm wondering If

I was the only one

Who understood it

that way

Then there's Joé

And there's Nic too

You seem to love their company

And they seem to want you

You go out with them

Again and again

And at least one of them Wants more than being friends

So why don't you choose one?

Why keep them in your life?

Maybe you don't even notice How it looks from the outside

And maybe I'm imagining More than I should

Maybe I'm doing what I always do

Turning nothing into something good

Maybe I got ahead of us

Maybe I read you wrong

Maybe all the things I felt

Were never there all along

So why am I the one

Who's standing still?

While you're out there Seeing who you feel You say you like

me

But you're looking everywhere

And maybe I was stupid

For thinking you would care

If this was never serious You could've let me know

'Cause I would've kept my options I would've let other people close

I would've gone on dates I would've kept those nights

I would've stayed in touch

With the people in my life

Maybe that's what hurts the most Not that you're seeing someone new

But that I changed the way I lived Because I believed in

you

I could've kept my distance I could've played the same game I

could've kept my casual nights And never learned your name But I

thought you wanted something That was different from before

So I closed a couple doors You were still looking for more

So tell me what you wanted

Tell me what this really means

Was I someone you were feeling

Or just another in-between?

'Cause I don't need forever

I just needed something true

If you're still searching for somebody

I need to know that's what you do

Maybe I thought too much Maybe I felt too deep Maybe I

gave a promise You never gave to me And that's okay If

that's the way you need to live Just don't tell me I'm

the only one While you keep searching for what you missed

I don't hate you I don't blame you I just wish you'd

told me 'Cause I would've kept my options too.

No tomorrow.

No promises. No pretending I was the only one.