Burnished Groove

Yeah…

I know I ain't perfect.

I know sometimes I don't show it right.

I say I'm protecting you…

But maybe I don't know the difference sometimes.

I'm sorry I'm freaky,

got thoughts I can't explain,

Sorry when I get jealous,

I don't know how to contain All these feelings in my chest,

all this fear inside my head,

Sometimes I say the wrong things when there's so much left unsaid.

I'm sorry I'm not sympathetic when you need me to care,

Sometimes you tell me that you're hurting,

and I'm barely even there.

I don't mean to make you feel like your feelings don't exist,

I'm just fighting with myself,

and you get caught up in it.

I wanna protect you from the things that I have seen,

But sometimes I get so scared,

I forget what love should mean.

I don't wanna be controlling,

I don't wanna make you choose,

Between the freedom that you deserve and the fear that I might

lose you. I'm scared of being replaced,

Scared somebody takes my place.

And I hate that all my fears Turn to anger when you're

near.

I don't want to cage your wings,

I just fear losing everything.

I gotta learn to trust your heart Instead of tearing us apart.

I'm sorry if my love feels heavy,

If my words don't make you feel safe.

I'm sorry I get so defensive When you're only trying to explain.

I'm not trying to own you,

I'm just scared of losing you.

But protecting you means nothing If I hurt you while I do.

I don't wanna control your life,

I just wanna know you're alright.

I'm still learning how to love you Without letting fear decide.

Sometimes I'm cold when I should hold space,

Say I don't care when I see pain on your face.

I act like nothing ever gets to me,

But there's a side of myself that you don't always see.

And yeah, sometimes my mind gets freaky,

Overthinks the little things that you tell me.

I know suspicion isn't proof,

And I know my fears ain't an excuse.

I can't ask for honesty and give you doubt,

Can't say I love you,

then shut your feelings out.

Can't call it protection if it feels like a chain,

Can't say I'm sorry and keep doing the same.

I wanna be the peace you run to when you're low,

Not another reason you feel scared to let me know.

I wanna hear you out,

even when the truth hurts,

And stop making every disagreement feel worse.

I'm sorry for the times I wasn't there,

For the moments I forgot to show I care.

For every time you needed understanding,

And I answered with defensiveness instead.

I can't promise I'll be perfect overnight,

But I can work on getting things right.

You deserve a love that lets you breathe,

And I need to become someone you can believe.

I'm sorry if my love feels heavy,

If my actions made you feel alone.

I was so afraid of losing you That I forgot love isn't

control. I'm not trying to own you,

I'm just learning what love should do.

It's not keeping you from the world,

It's respecting the choices you choose.

I wanna

protect you, not possess you,

Understand you, not suppress you.

I wanna listen when you're hurting,

Not make you prove that you deserve it.

I'm sorry for the person I've been,

For the battles you got caught up in.

I can't change the past or erase the pain…

But I can stop making the same mistakes again.

I'm sorry I'm like this…

But I don't

want to stay like this.

You deserve more than apologies.

You deserve to see the

difference. And if I say I love you… I gotta learn to

show it.