Starting Over

The morning crossed the kitchen floor

I let the kettle boil too long

Your coat is gone behind the door

The hook still holds the shape of home

I said that I was doing fine

You heard the distance in my voice

I thought we'd have a little time

I didn't see it was a choice

I can't ask you to forget

All the words I never said

But I can learn to let them through

Even if they won't reach you

This is where I begin again

In a room that doesn't know your name With the truth I

couldn't face back then

And a heart I have to learn to change I won't call

just to pull you back

I won't dress my loneliness as love I'll leave a little window

open

For the person I'm becoming

I take the longer way to work

Past the bench we used to share

Some days the smallest memories hurt

Some days I'm glad that we were there

I'm learning how to sit with things

Without a screen or crowded place

To hear the quiet underneath

And give my own mistakes a name

Maybe you are sleeping better

Maybe that's enough to know

I can wish you something gentle

Without asking you to come home

This is where I begin again

With the truth I couldn't face back then

I won't dress my loneliness as love

Or pretend that change is easy

I'll leave a little window open

For the person I'm becoming

The morning crossed the kitchen floor

Today I let the daylight in